Denials and Late Night Confessions

I remember our first hi; petty introductions,
your first smile I do not miss you

I remember our frequent encounters; the way you stare at me,
the way you disagree, the way you try to concentrate when I annoy you
and you end up getting frustrated;
the adorable furrow in your eyebrows I do not miss you,
not even one bit

Your pretty smile, your adorable pout,
your annoying voice when you try to imitate my high-pitched one;
your attempts to make me laugh
Yes, I do not miss you at all

Your kindness, your “Are you okays?”,
your concerned look that shoots me through the heart
Stop it, I really don’t miss you

Our frequent handshakes just so you can touch my hand;
your attempts in asking about my past relationships
just so you can know more about me;
your perseverance to always meet me even if you’re sleepy,
our late night conversations
I don’t miss it at all because I really don’t so please,
don’t ask me over and over again because if you do
my defenses will crumble and I’m gonna miss you all over again.

Now that you’re faraway, I have no choice but to forget you
so please when you ask me for the last time, I will only say:
I don’t miss you, I really don’t.

FRIENDS OR YOUR LOVER?

Most of the time, when people are asked with this question, they answer the first choice paired with the reason that, “When things go awry with your lover, your friends will always be around for you and that they will never leave your side”.

Well, I actually do not agree with that ‘reason’ 100% percent (well, I agree but just not 100% of my being) of it because I believe that, naturally, people, even if they are the best of your best friends will eventually somehow leave your side (whether temporarily or permanently) for of course, they will have to attend to their own business or thing. I anchor my reason to the principle (rather philosophy) that man by nature is selfish, that man is a utility maximizer and that he satisfies himself first before satisfying needs of the people around him (thanks Colin Hay for inspiring me).

For example, if you chose your friends over that someone you romantically love, what happens then to you? What will you do when your friends are busy and cannot accompany you? Are you gonna go together with your friend and someone he loves and be that annoying third party who doesn’t go away? (Save me from those people who say it’s alright when really it is not all right) Also, what if you didn’t choose the person you love? Will you be alright if say, you chose your friends over that person you love, and that several years later you accidentally bumped into him on a street with a kid in tow and a ring band on his ring finger? What if he was actually ‘the one’ and you just let the perfect opportunity to be together with him over your friends and so your supposed-to-be ‘the one’ has found another and yep, got married? Will you be okay with that? I think this is why we are called ‘individual’ because at the end of the day, you go to your own bed, to your own house; you solve your own problems and stuff.

So in my opinion, I’m choosing my lover over my friends (yes, and I know it sounds quite harsh but yes that is my choice). I’m a big sucker for fate and destiny and I believe that once you found your ‘fate or destiny’ grab the chance and never let him go. Yes, things might go awry with ‘him’ but if you love him (really love him) you will not give up so easily, right? Marriage is there for the both of you to have and to hold, divorce or annulment is not the wise option to resort to if your relationship goes on a rocky stage. You resort only to this option when love is not present between the two of you anymore.

Therefore, answering this kind of question would be similar to the, “Who do you love more: your father or your mother?” kind of question. It’s frustrating and it’s endless but in the end, you are bound to make a choice and that choice will affect the people around you or even hurt them. So I guess whatever the choice you make, choose it wisely and that make sure you incur the least liability.

 

A/N: I hope I’m making sense. 🙂

 

Keeping Company with Myself pt. 2

Another story for another experience.

Everyday in our lives, we meet different people with different interests and personalities. Some of them you get along with but most of the times you don’t (or they don’t). Life is like that, it gives you a lot of surprises and you’ll never know or even guess who you’ll stick with and who’ll be your enemy the next. It’s good when you get along with your peers and acquaintances but its hard and bad when your personalities clash which then results to a fight. I’ve been to many fights and trust me, it’s hard going through every single fight and it’s even harder for me because I am always the first one to react and express my thoughts and opinion. It’s always like my brain is always separated from me and I react according to what I feel (and this is really my bad trait) but y’see, I think I am entitled to my own emotions. I can feel what I feel and don’t feel and I am very sure that I am not always overreacting.

Recently, I’ve been in dilemma of all these questions that’s floating inside my head. Questions such as: “Do I have the right to get angry to the people who put me in a compromising situation?”, “Do I have the right to be offended?”, “Do I have the right to expect an apology from them?”. Well, I think my answer would be yes for the first two questions and I think no for the last one (because they always say they are rational people)

During that moment, I felt really disappointed with people who thinks only through their brain (well yeah, technically you think through your brain, what I meant here was ‘intellectually’ you bozo) not even considering the ethical implication of the decision they made. Yes I understand how rational a human can get and how a person puts himself and his needs over others but does that really work in the real world? Yes, people might tell me, “Rationality very well works in the real world!” but I think the people who will most likely tell me with the phrase such as that one surely doesn’t know that a human does not only have the brain but also has the heart (Haven’t you even considered Behavioralism?). If rationality overpowers all humans why then can I see a man helping out a lady who slipped even if he is very much late for work? A boy helping out the old woman cross the street ignoring the fact that he might not alight on the next scheduled trip for a bus? Friends visiting over their sick friend? A lady trying very hard not to take a peek over the paper of her classmate? A young man lending his classmate his spare ballpoint pen because the latter doesn’t have one? or even covering up for your other friend just because he doesn’t want him/her to be marked absent? Isn’t it because men not only make decisions through the brain but is always guided with their heart (or shall I say emotions?) Isn’t it because men do not think only of themselves but also of the welfare of others?

People have to accept that all decisions are almost always influenced with the people around you because YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY PERSON LIVING IN THIS WORLD THERE ARE 7.045 BILLION OTHERS INHABITING THE WORLD YOU LIVE IN. Even if most of the people agree with you doesn’t it even cross your mind how your decision might affect to that small lot of people who disagree with you? Do you really pursue your own rationality just because you share the same rationality with others (even though it’s a really crooked rationality)? Do you even not consider the welfare of that small population? Even if they are only the 0.45 in the total population do you not listen to what they want and feel and Isn’t that unjust? Don’t you give them the opportunity to voice out their opinions just because majority opposed their ideas?  Do we not expend effort and give them an option which would somehow compromise the majority’s situation and their situation? It’s even worse if the one who acts out all these so-called rationality are the ones you consider as your peers. I always thought we are on the same page, I guess not. We, who went through and studied the same principles. We, who ate principles of being just and fair even if they belong to the minority. Where did all those principles go?

Now I guess, I have to be alone in this journey. I don’t mind anymore If I’m alone I’m already used to it. I’ll just have to accept the fact that yeah, people do differ opinions.

 

A/N: I know, I know this is poorly written but I really hope you got my point. TT

 

New found love ♥

Recently, my kpop feels came back and if I have been crushing on Kim Hyun Joong last time, there’s another Korean idol I’ve been crushing also. His name is Cho Kyuhyun; the youngest member of Super Junior.

He has some same qualities with Kim Hyun Joong (intelligent and funny) so that’s why he wasn’t able to escape. 🙂

*A/N: It’s good to be back! I feel bad that I neglected my blog. T.T I always get busy during school days and I only have the opportunity to check and update on my blog during summertime. Be updated on my new posts and show some love! 🙂

“One sees clearly only with the heart. Anything essential is invisible to the eyes…”

I am a person who is easily inspired and just like the fox, one who enjoys having friends around. I really enjoy having friends around because I am the type of person who gets lonely easily and by reading the Little Prince, the fox’s character inspired me a lot. Its character helped me realize how awesome it is that to the world, you’re just another person but to one person, you can mean the world. But this wonder is not achieved instantly, it requires a process. At first, two people seem to shy away at each other and conduct formal introductions but as time passes by and with constant interaction, they’ll begin to create a bond. They’ll start noticing things vital for each other, things that can make the other person happy and avoid things that can trigger sadness. It’s in this thought that I realized how awesome our Creator is by enabling us to feel emotions that will help us enjoy life, though temporarily.

The fox’s character also helped me realize how unbelievably materialistic the people are today.  These people are like the ‘grown ups’ in the novel described as those who care only about figures and wants things to be done instantly. They are the people that when you introduce someone to them, the questions they’ll be bringing up would be, “How old is he?”, “What’s his profession?”, “How much money does he make?”, and “How tall is he?” but never with questions; “What’s his favorite song?”, “Does he like to hum?”, “What games does he like best?” I then discerned, that in order to have a happy and healthy relationship with others, you must make an effort because interacting is a two way process. Relationships don’t work if one person always receives and never gives; the people around you will tire easily and most probably will leave you. I also realized that in order to love someone, you must go beyond their imperfections and accept them for who they are. Reflect on the times you spent with them and gauge within yourself how he made an impact on you.

But even if you have achieved a healthy relationship with others it doesn’t mean that you’ll always feel happiness with them, it means that you are vulnerable to the feeling of sadness. There’s always a time when they need to leave us, probably pursue their own dreams or attend to their other friends, it may become the lowest point of your life but this experience will actually help you become a better person because it will teach you the act of unselfishness. Always remember, it is through selfishness that the evils prey on. 

 

*Our teacher in Philosophy asked us what character in the ‘Little Prince’ appealed to us the most and this was my honest opinion *~*. Read the book and you’ll find the character closest to your personality 🙂

2012 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

4,329 films were submitted to the 2012 Cannes Film Festival. This blog had 20,000 views in 2012. If each view were a film, this blog would power 5 Film Festivals

Click here to see the complete report.

Ssangchu Couple, Long Live!♥

 

I just finished watching We Got Married: Ssangchu Couple, [We Got Married= South Korean reality variety show that pairs up celebrities to show what life would be like if they were married.] and I can say that through the whole duration, there was not one episode where I didn’t laugh! 

My main objective of watching the Ssangchu couple’s episodes was mainly because Kim Hyun Joong stars in it but as I watched more and more of the episodes, I realized that I’ve come to love their pairing. They were even described as the ‘most awkward couple’ among others! It really amazes me how Hyun-Joongie cracks Hwangbo (and me at the same time) up! He makes other people laugh without even trying and I guess it’s because of his innate good, innocent and childish character. 

Their pairing, despite the awkwardness, showed my ideal type of relationship. Theirs was a very good combination of two personalities creating a very sweet image of what should couples be. I mean, to overcome their awkwardness, they make bets with reward for the winner and punishment for the loser and unknowingly in that way, they became the sweetest couple you could imagine. In someways, I can connect to Hwangbo through her personality. Even though at first, Hyun Joong was very blunt to her not showing any sweet gestures she was very understanding and she was not the typical girl who whines a lot. 

My favorite moments with the Ssangchu couple are:

• In their honeymoon in Jeju when Hwangbo showed HyunJoong couple shirts and asked him to wear it. Hyun Joong doesn’t like mushy things so he asked Hwangbo if he can alter his shirt so it doesn’t look like a couple shirt.
• Also, their honeymoon in Jeju when Hyun Joong asked Hwangbo to open a bottle of soda with a spoon.
• In their housewarming party, when SS501 members and friends of Hwangbo asked Hyun Joong to carry her in the pool and Hyun Joong with his playful character, acts dropping Hwangbo in the water.
• When Hwangbo got mad at him and they were playfully fighting over the sofa.
• In the ANT TOUR where Hyun Joong made crane capsules and asked Hwangbo to look for it and in the process lost it in the sand.
• In the farm, where Hyun Joong sang Falling slowly for Hwangbo and gave her 995 cranes.
• In the farm, where Hyun Joong lost in their bet and was forced to do aegyo (cute acting) to Hwangbo.
• When they went to a theme park, and wore wigs. Hwangbo was concerned that Hyun Joong’s fans will recognize him and him saying that they won’t but several minutes later a group of his fans called out his name.
• In the theme park, where Hyun Joong lost again in their bet and performed body wave.
• In an episode where Hwangbo performed to military men and when she got home they made a bet and lost to Hyun Joong and she performed aegyo in front of him and since then, Hyun Joong constantly teased her about it.

and many more! 

After the end of the episode, I learned that in a relationship you only need to be understanding and be respectful to each other and constantly make others happy. You need not be flashy or too trying hard to please each other, just express yourself and make your partner happy. I remembered crying in their last episode when they tell something to the future spouses of each other. All in all, this WGM episode is really great♥ And boosts up my respect to both Hwangbo and Kim Hyun Joong, even though they didn’t end up as a couple together, I know that they cherished each other’s company and I respect both of them for that. 🙂

STATUS: SINGLE or IN A RELATIONSHIP?

When we think of the olden days, to be in a relationship isn’t as easy as the snap of a finger.

If you are a man, you actually have to sweat to get the lady of your dreams, and if you are a lady, it is a tad harder than it seems since you actually have to wait for a gentleman to take an interest of you since airing out one’s feelings to a man you like makes you a deviant in your circle of friends. So as not to become deviant, you swish out your elegant fan to cover up most of your face except your eyes to the man who expresses his interest to you and the slightest thing you can do is flutter your lashes that may serve as an undertone whenever he makes an amusing remark to indicate you like him as well. Although this hint might not really be effective if the gentleman who pursues you might not be really, is the brightest light in the harbor.

But if the man you like pursues you further, then he does everything in his power to get the sweetest “yes” from you.

Either he goes visiting your house, which of course is approved by your parents, giving you sweets, and flowers and even recites a love poem on you or he does the sweetest romantic gesture of serenading you a love song in the middle of the night while you go mooning over his love song on your balcony. All of these types of wooing may go on for ages depending on how long your parents or you want your man to suffer. Now if given the green signal then that’s the time he asks for your hand and after all those matrimonial rites that’s when you and your man can drown in matrimonial bliss and do some hanky panky.

Seeing the way the modern generation behaves, you really can’t see any of these sweet moments of wooing. Just one text or one phone call and that’s it you are officially or unofficially, if the relationship’s a secret, your man’s lady. No love poems, no chocolates, no flowers to sweep you off your feet. Just plain asking you out and some rolling in the hay and poof you are already in a relationship.

It quite unnerves me how the women today are so easily swayed of their emotions without even testing how real the man’s feelings are for her. Just because one man takes an interest on you doesn’t mean that there aren’t other men who also has taken a liking at you too, probably just working up on his aces to show for you. So don’t decide too quickly. Assess your feelings for him and his feelings for you because if you don’t you’ll only get a sexual relationship or an infatuation relationship and not a love relationship.

 

So think brilliantly and don’t jump too quickly off the gun.

Kiss Me Again!

Hey y’all those Gaskarth fans out there! Here’s a single from We Are The In Crowd featuring our adorable Alex Gaskarth! Very nice song and if you happen to have time, listen to it and download it in your phones or MPs.

Happy listening 😉

May the Odds be in your favor!

I went to the cinemas together with the two of my closest friends to watch ‘The Hunger Games’. The schedule we’re after for was 6:20 p.m and we arrived two hours earlier than expected. So while waiting for the movie, we chatted up a bit about what’s new in our lives. It’s too bad some of my closest friends weren’t with us, it would be 50x fun, I enjoyed their company too. Just like the saying, “The more, the merrier”. Anyways, after the long wait, we went inside the cinema too excited for the movie itself. Since, Me and my other classmate; both haven’t read the book, we were hesitating a bit but my other classmate, who read the book, assured us that it’s worth the wait.

True to her word, the movie is spectacular! I don’t know how many times have I shouted over thrilling scenes and how my eye stings from crying over the scene with Rue and Katniss. The female lead’s performance was quite commendable too! Along with her co-stars they actually made a worth-watching movie. I still remember too how I gushed over Katniss and Peeta (even though how embarrassing it is). I say another literary genius is born in the person of Suzanne Collins.

Be awed and be inspired with the ‘Girl on Fire’!

If you are interested to watch, then don’t waste any time! Here’s the trailer and may the odds be in your favor! :